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Nothing Good in Me

“I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord; I have no good apart from you.””‭‭Psalm‬ ‭16:2‬ ‭ESV‬

I don’t think there is anyone who doesn’t want world peace. We might vastly disagree about what world peace looks like, or even how to achieve it, but nobody is actively campaigning for constant war. 

I’m sure both political sides will read this and say “what about so and so” but in your heart you know I’m right. Yet I can’t help but chuckle or even be dismayed when I see signs like the one by my house that say “pray for peace” or read about friends going to the World Peace Summit or whatever peace hopeful place it might be. 

Peace is a wonderful concept and a wonderful goal, but in reality it’s an unattainable one. World peace won’t come through prayer, it won’t come through stricter gun regulations, it won’t come through the destruction of Islam, and it won’t come through putting (insert Candidate A) in the White House. 

Peace comes through Christ. Period. And I wonder sometimes how we have moved so far from what the Psalmist says here. “I have no good apart from you.” It wasn’t just a Reformation concept, it’s a truth emblazoned across scripture. The good in me comes from the good in Him. 

There is nothing good in us. Decency doesn’t come from the fact that humans are at their very essence good. It comes in spite of the fact that at their core humans are wicked. No one taught my daughter to be rude and mean, we taught her the opposite. Still sometimes she slaps at me and screams at me because that’s who we are inside. It’s God’s grace which reveals the good of Himself in us.

I’ve been struggling. I’m probably on the borderline of full on depression. I have many things to be thankful for and I have constantly seen God provide, yet I still struggle. This is my starting point for God correcting that. To be constantly reminded there is nothing good in me. God didn’t call me because I’m strong. He called me because He uses the weak. And I am strong in Him because 

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭ESV
Coco

Refocus

Our little family and life feels so different than others our age/life stage and also exactly the same. Some days we dream about the future and hope it entails a home with a yard that is overflowing with college students that we pour ourselves into as we together walk towards Jesus. Other days we wonder how we can ever make “plans” for the future because we’ve had so many unexpected turns that it’s almost laughable. Almost.

Last week, Cory and I got to serve with Super Summer, a ministry camp that we love dearly and is so very special to us personally. We met at Super Summer and have continually been blessed by the relationships with other ministers we’ve made while serving. Last week is the most time I’ve had in almost 2 years to sit for a week straight without distraction during worship services. To be honest it was weird and I felt really vulnerable. But, God used that week to solidify something I’ve been wrestling with for awhile now: How do we balance Cory’s health with this ministry life we’ve been called to?

I don’t have the answer, but I do have some strong convictions about the way we should live. Our focus in life is not our health. There are times and seasons that it is more at the forefront, but pursuing health in itself is not satisfying. Do we need to eat well and exercise? Absolutely. But this is not our goal in life. We do not know what tomorrow holds but we know our purpose. Our lives are meant to be spent for the sake of the gospel. So, while it is tempting to arrange our days by smoothies, herbal remedies, naps, homemade everything and only engaging positive people. This is not the life Cory & I feel called to. We are most satisfied  in our souls when we are working together to sow seeds of the gospel. Honestly, I’ve been so convicted about being wrapped up in “life” that I’m sure I’ve missed so many opportunities to speak life into those who have crossed my path. So, this is my way of asking you to pray for us as we ask God for wisdom and direction for engaging people.

Just to clarify, we’re not abandoning Dr’s appointments or working on our discipline with eating & exercise, we’re just readjusting our focus.

“For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God”.

-2 Corinthians‬ ‭4‬:‭15

2 Corinthians 4:15-18

A Tiny Update

I’ve attempted to write a new blog many times but words wouldn’t come. We’ve moved past a bit of our “crisis” mode and have settled into life in Waco. Cory has been substitute teaching and we are grateful God has provided a new part-time job right as the school year is coming to a close. He is feeling pretty good, we’re eating better, exercising and he’s having blood work and check ups every few weeks

Our busy summer work season is well underway and we are excited to be a part of training students through iGoGlobal as we send them out among the nations to sow seeds of the gospel. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve and be a tiny part of what God is doing through iGo.

Thank you for your continued prayers. We know fighting Cory’s cancer will most likely be a long, slow battle but we pray that whatever comes we would be faithful with the time and resources we have.